If you're out there I swear to be good to you

Yup I'm on that Tori Kelly ish. I always find myself thinking about wanting to have someone with me on this journey. This desire leads me into temptation. This temptation makes me want to lower my "standards" by going after someone that doesn't fit what I'm looking for. Standards are a personal thing and we all have our own. For myself I look for a lot of key qualities within someone's personality & choice of lifestyle. The kind of people I try to avoid dating are people w/ O.C.D., clingy peeps, people who care too much about their looks, pessimists & "realists" (there needs to be a new term for realists because optimists achieve real things, just saying. Realists are just people with limitations) end side rant, and people who are closed-minded and get offended easily by anything and everything.

The main thing I look for in a person is passion, and I'm fortunate enough to be able to see it in someone rather quickly. Someone with an open-mind, and a creative one. I like people who can appreciate the small things. Independence & always wanting to grow is something I look for that's very important in my future significant other.

Sometimes I just want to have someone to hold hands, watch movies, cuddle, create, dance, cook, read, game, go on adventures & watch dance videos with. But I won't do it with someone I can't see myself having a future with. I'm very time-conscious so I won't waste my time settling for people who are convenient. I'm patient & picky. That's just me.

Meh

My response to kindess

From time to time someone I know will come along & send me a lengthy text. Within that text will be words of gratitude & love because I sparked something in them; hope, inspiration, ideas. And when I receive these types of things I never know how to respond & I'm trying to figure out why that is. I'm saying this on a very serious level. I will usually just look at it & feel something but not respond. I've never been able to take a compliment so I know that has to do with it. If I receive one in person I just stutter & smile & respond with a simple "thank you", I like your face. I think it's because I'm a bit more self-conscious about the things I say now than I have before. When I talk or text, I can respond with a butt-load of things. And a lot of the times I feel like people don't want to hear it so I minimize my response or opinion to things. I know when people are tuned in to what I have to say and when they don't. But it doesn't make sense to me why I choose to reply so poorly to a lengthy text praising me & thanking me when obviously they would appreciate something like that from me. I'm weird. K bye.

My Art; reflection

I have 3 different approaches to choose from when deciding on choreographing to a song.

The first method which I can do the fastest is the fun/ simple/ recycled method.
This method is typically the most fun because I do not think technically when I'm in this mind set. I choreograph to obvious parts of the music and throw in lots of grooves & some power motions & creative freedom (improvisation). The focus here is just doing movement that is pure fun, nothing else. Since I want it to be fun on the most broad platform I can put it on, I make sure it's not difficult. I use the term "recycled" because a lot of the moves I put together are things I'm comfortable/ familiar with. That is the reason why I can choreography routines of this nature so quickly.

The 2nd method I use is the technical/ growth method.
When I enter music with this mentality I focus on everything going on in the song. I want to make sure I don't miss any sounds and I carefully select what comes to me naturally & sometimes not so naturally. With pieces like this I focus on musicality, unfamiliarity, visual appeal, & speed (even though I'm all about visual appeal)
I'd like to think I have really good musicality if I do say so myself. I find it easy to bounce from voice to music & to make it visually clear in my choreography. When I focus on musicality I aim to enhance the way I listen to music and bring it to life. What's also extremely important to me is doing movement my body is unfamiliar with, so I try to stay out of my comfort zone but not completely because I want to stay true to what I know while also diving into new movement. Since musicality is a high focus in this method, I always try to increase my speed of movement & execution as a dancer. I believe being able to move quickly & knowing how to control that speed is very important in every style of dance.

The 3rd method is one that I don't do as often because I'm usually overwhelmed from using the first 2 methods for classes I teach & shows/ videos. This 3rd method is like a release for me. Whenever dance starts to feel like work to me, a song will find me and speak to me. When that moment happens my body enters this trance and begins to create movement naturally and with a ton of energy I never knew I had. I'm not always aware of my surroundings when I enter 3rd method. My mind, body & soul get lost & does what it needs to do. With this, I typically do not think at all. I just let the music move me.

Why I call this post "My art; reflection" is because I've found that my creative process is similar to the way I live.
I'm very good at doing things I'm familiar with and can do it quickly & always have a good time doing it, just like method one.
Other times I step out of the known to learn things I hunger for in order to improve in whatever aspect of life I feel like I need to improve on.
Other times I just get lost. And that's one of my favorite things to do.